Looking for stars

A poem about a person who is trapped into a situation where he feels helpless and hold on to the stars to guide him - towards his destiny

Everything,
Everything seem to be taken away from me,
I am like a fool,
Believing everybody that tells me what I should do,

I am without a father,
Looking up towards others who are kind,
I see them as a guiding star,
Someone who would light the path and show me the way,

I was happy to walk on,
Though the burden felt so heavy,
I am glad I have someone that I could carry,
To help them as they helped me walk the lighted way,

But,
When the buden became so heavy,
Until to the point I couldnt carry,
I smiled as I told the star that It's to heavy,
Instead I got a disapproving frown and a rebuke, 

Where was the smiling star that shown the way?
Did I do something wrong?
A disgrace? 
Where was the sweet sweet assuring voice that I held on to? 

Suddenly the burden has been lifted back to the star,
and I felt so light! 
But the star left me shining no more,
It is dark and gloomy now 

The Star...
It had turn its back on me 
and the road to leading towards my destiny
was the star's destiny instead,

So, goodbye loving star,
You have left me in the dark and cold,
I thought I had somewhere to go,
But you have led me into despair instead of gold,

I am left alone,
Crying in the corner,
You have broken my heart,
And I sit there waiting for another star to come guide the way

What a fool I am,
Don't I know that the stars that guide my way,
Are merely shining the way towards their own goals,
and care nothing of me and my "what will be"? 




but why; oh why,
Why just can't I see?
The star I seek 
Is already within me

MC