Twisted

Why cant you leave me be,
took advantage of the beauty in my eyes 
and showed me the beautiful side
in order to draw me closer
to the darker side of thee

Why cant you pass me by,
you saw the look in my eyes
and you knew i wouldn't see it coming 

Exposing me to the dark 
Raping the goodness and the beauty deep in side of me

How can I let this be?

Racing in my heart 
Now I just want to tear every thing apart

So angry
So bitter
The taste in my mouth is just so sour
Shaking
My hands are shaking
just the thought of life makes me 
quiver and shake 

You ripped it out
All the smile that used to be is already goner 
You tore it  out
my heart that once was gentle now bleeds like a propeller

It's twisted
It's twisted  
My dear old mind, its twisted

I can never be the same 
I want to go bad
but my heart still says be good all the same 
Why can't I belong? 
Why is it every single thing I do is always wrong 

How can they let me be?
No help and support from them
they all laugh as they let me be 
Why should they let me die?
Am I not decent enough to be alive?

Why must the wicked be made to succeed?
When the good are left hungry and in need
Why should they not die?
I don't know the answers so please tell me why?

Looking for stars

A poem about a person who is trapped into a situation where he feels helpless and hold on to the stars to guide him - towards his destiny

Everything,
Everything seem to be taken away from me,
I am like a fool,
Believing everybody that tells me what I should do,

I am without a father,
Looking up towards others who are kind,
I see them as a guiding star,
Someone who would light the path and show me the way,

I was happy to walk on,
Though the burden felt so heavy,
I am glad I have someone that I could carry,
To help them as they helped me walk the lighted way,

But,
When the buden became so heavy,
Until to the point I couldnt carry,
I smiled as I told the star that It's to heavy,
Instead I got a disapproving frown and a rebuke, 

Where was the smiling star that shown the way?
Did I do something wrong?
A disgrace? 
Where was the sweet sweet assuring voice that I held on to? 

Suddenly the burden has been lifted back to the star,
and I felt so light! 
But the star left me shining no more,
It is dark and gloomy now 

The Star...
It had turn its back on me 
and the road to leading towards my destiny
was the star's destiny instead,

So, goodbye loving star,
You have left me in the dark and cold,
I thought I had somewhere to go,
But you have led me into despair instead of gold,

I am left alone,
Crying in the corner,
You have broken my heart,
And I sit there waiting for another star to come guide the way

What a fool I am,
Don't I know that the stars that guide my way,
Are merely shining the way towards their own goals,
and care nothing of me and my "what will be"? 




but why; oh why,
Why just can't I see?
The star I seek 
Is already within me

MC